thoughts for thursday part 1

I had 2 thoughts this past week that I think are equally important - so here's #1

If you knew that the date and time that you were going to die, what would you do in your life today? I mean, if you knew that there was a high possibility that you would die tomorrow - what would you do today? You can't change the fact that you are going to die.

For me, I definitely would not be working. I would call the school and tell them I wanted to see my students and give them all hugs, but then I would go. I would want to take Jenna to lay out on the lawn and listen to the sounds going on around us. The lawnmowers, the dogs barking, the wind. I want her to appreciate the sounds, the music that nature makes. I would write letters to DH and Jenna and hide them in different places throughout the house. I would want my friends and family to be there for a huge party - not to say goodbye, but to say I'll see you soon.

Now, here's where I have the dilemma, I would want real time with Jason and Jenna. But, would I want someone to watch Jenna for a little bit while Jason and I have our time? I wouldn't want to leave Jenna's sight though KWIM?

I'm glad that I know that my family is eternal - it makes what happens in the next week and month a little less hard. If something were to happen to Alia, I know that I will see her again and I know that we are an eternal family. Families have no boundaries in heaven. What an amazing blessing to know that. It has given me comfort over the last couple of weeks. Sure, it still means that I need to do what I can today, but it makes sure that my family will be there for me after this life.